why feeling lonely ?

i have a lot of friends

but sometimes , i still feel lonely

because i like to do something that they wouldn't do..

i mean,, actually ,,

i think i don't belong here..

they use qq , while i make myself use msn

even though there are not as many friends on my msn as that on my qq contact list

they use xiaonei.com , while i enjoy using facebook

even though , just my 2 cousins, and 2 net friends who poke me there..

it's very embarrassing ..

the situation i am in ..

why do i so stubborn ?

hate myself ...

'just take it easy ! it's ok !'

i tried to tell myself..

but

maybe i wanna be a part of 'them' too much..

sorry for being myself..